Lately the insomnia has been bad with me, keeping me up late, or waking me after only a couple hours of sleep. Stress hasn't helped much with my oldest's medical stuff and listening to what others are saying on how to handle the situation. Why was I blessed with a child that has to go through such trials? My poor girl cant control a lot of things, goes through issues, and has violent meltdowns. Specialists want me to send her away to a long term residential home. Yet can I? I was blessed to raise this child, not to throw her away. Just for the few days she has been gone for short term medical treatment, it has killed me being away from her as it has her. I have staff telling me how excited she is to come home and be with family again. I am so excited to bring her back home, but yet I am scared. How long is the honeymoon period? How long before things start back up again?
Yes I am questioning WHY?! Why was I blessed with this special needs child when I have people telling me for safety reasons, to give her to a long term place? Are we not taught to Endure through these trials to find the blessings? I want the answers to these questions.
anyways... back to school work and studying.
