We got the results from my oldests blood work for Metabolic/DNA test. She has a mutation in one of her strands. So we were referred for genetic counseling. I do hope this hurries through I am tired of all the waiting. (Yes patience has never been a strong suit for me). Till then, a lot has been on hold.
I look back and see what all has been going on. I am working at an OK job, but ideally, its not what I want to do. I love the EMS stuff. I believe its a calling for me. Yet here I am working retail because it works with my oldests medical appointments. Drives me nuts. But yes I sacrifice for my children and that I do not regret. I don't have a social life, I don't get out for adult time (other then work and 2 hrs for church). That is it. I do miss a lot of things but there is not much what I can do about that.
Today while running errands with my youngest, she told me I need to get married again. I told her I don't even have time to date. She told me I had enough Male friends that I just need to marry one of them and get it over with :-) if it was only that easy. But I know it would be nice to have someone to share my life with. Someone that could handle my girls, as well as myself. My oldest is a handful and not many can handle that (as proven in the past). It caused a hurt ego but it showed me their true colors. I don't need that in my life. What I need is someone who respects their priesthood and understand that I am a full package. With me, comes an instant family. I am a full time mother. I have my girls 365 days a year. This is difficult for some to understand as I found out, but hey, don't need that in my life.
Well I should get back to my research. I am trying to learn more about what is going on with my oldest. I don't have long here at the library
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