Well I would like to say things have been going great, but they haven't been the best. Things are still going on with Evie and her medical stuff that I don't know which direction I am heading currently. With all the times I have had to call Emergency as well as the Crisis teams, just not sure what to do anymore.
With everything going on, I have been questioning a lot about why I am up here away from my family and what good is it here? Yes I know that kind of thinking is from the advisory and lately he has been working on me 100%. I am tired of the stress and all the issues that are going on. So yes with all these stresses, as you can imagine how my personal self is... yea. Not doing to well. I need to get in to see Paul this week, but when? I have meetings like crazy with all of Evies therapists and Natalies, working two jobs... Where do I take care of myself? When do I have time? But such is life of a single parent.
Please do not get me wrong, I regret none of it. I do remind myself of the bigger picture reminding me why I had moved up here in the first place. But I could do without the stress and the worries. My ulcer hasn't acted up in awhile, well this past weekend, it started acting up. I am just exhausted. Yes I allowed myself to get ran down, which I had tried to stop, but its kind of hard.
Natalies birthday is this week. I feel bad because I have to work, and she has let me know that she is upset about it. I feel awful. but what can I do.
The good part is we found out the Social Security was approved. The bad part, I had applied for the Disability and she was approved for supplemental. So not sure what that means. I just need to find a time to get downtown to the main office and find out what is going on.
Well that's about it for me. Im at the library and letting the girls play around some. I figured I would jam to some music and update a few things...
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