Day off = Go, Go GO

We have been going since 9am this morning.  Holy cow!!!  I wish I had a pedometer just to see how much I walked. :-)

I have been doing some thinking though.  Today I had an appointment and talked a lot about everything I had been through from the past, especially everything with my ex husband.  It just got me thinking, am I ready for  relationship?  I don't know.  Also with all of Evie's issues, I need someone that will understand why I'm tired, or why I can only work part time.  I deal with a lot on daily basis that a lot of people could not handle.  I have had to place myself between both girls, and take the hits.  I am the one that sits up all night while one child is screaming and breaking things.  I received calls while at work to go pick up my daughter from daycares or school.  I have had to sit with her in school just to get her to do her work. I am the one that made the decision to call non-emergency for her and sit in the ER with her after a meltdown.  I have done ALOT as single mom!!  But I need someone that can see this.  I need someone that wont expect me to work full time and yet be the full time mom.  I moved 400 miles from my family for better medical care for her.  As a friend says, I detached the umbilical cord (ok its been detached since I have lived on my own for quite a long time.) 

So now it comes to the major decision on what to do.  I am staying up here, but will have to be finding a place.  I will be looking for just the girls and I.  I do love it up here and do not want to go back to NM.  For the first time I feel like I belong somewhere. Yes it gets lonely here, but there is a lot to do, and, well I feel great here.

Also today, as we walked around Temple Square, we saw Elder Eyring!!!  YES in person!!! hehehe it was the coolest thing ever!  He said hi.  I wish I had my phone so I could have taken a picture!! lol yes I probably would have asked for a selfie.

But as we were in the North visitors center, there was a video "Finding Peace".  I listened to Elder Hollands, and Pres. Monson's talk.  WOW just what I needed.


anyways that's all for me.  I do believe its going to be time to get some sleep soon.  I have to work a long shift tomorrow