Well even though I was excused from work today, I still went in. I kept my water bottle with me at all times today and drank a lot!! I think that helped. I still feel really worn out though, but it will take awhile to get back up to where I need to be.
I also had a nice long talk with my mom on the phone tonight. She was seeing a bit of what I was telling her about whats going on. She agreed with me. So I don't feel bad.. but problem is, I don't feel. I don't know what is going on but yeah I was upset but that was it. It didn't last long and I'm still feeling ok. I feel mad at him but that is it. You would think I would feel broken hearted or something... but I don't.
One thing maybe, I'm mama bear.. I am protective over my girls. The fact that I had promises "I'll help you..." went to "my mom said I cant watch them on Sunday night..". First of all HOW old are you? Ugh. Then the fact he through "i did this for you.... I over drawn my account... " umm I never asked for that. He kept changing the facts on me, and that's when I started to realize how similar it was from the time before. I went through that with my ex husband. I remember he threw stuff like that back at me... wouldn't listen to what was going on.
What I am looking for is someone I don't have to support. If I want to be a mom and stay home I should have that right! I cook. I clean. I do dishes... if I want to work then it should be fine as part time. I supported my ex with working myself into the ground. I will not do that again.
Yeah I'm a bit mad... but then again I'm still not feeling 100% better so that's my excuse
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