Sitting at the library and vegging when i should be home cleaning. I just have no muse in my life today to get things accomplished. Not sure what is going on, just what I am dealing with. Just tired i guess. So as i am sitting here, I decided to put on YouTube and listen to some music, and looking at tattoo stuff. Ha i know im weird.
My music is very eclectic. I listen to country (older stuff), dancing, latino, Rock, Pop, Classical, Opera, just whatever I am in the mood for. So i have a play list on YouTube with a variety of items. Figured might as well enjoy my time and hopefully relax some before i have to work tonight.
I have been pondering alot lately about where my life is going. Especially in the job situation...
1) I am a people person.
2) I cant stand still... I have to keep moving.
3) I miss doing the medical stuff.
The other day at work, I had a chance to use my EMT knowledge and skills to help someone. It felt GREAT!!! My boss was glad I was there to assist and said she couldn't have ever done something like that. It is just what I do. Some people believe they have a calling in life. They believe they know what they want to do in life. Well this is where I am. I want to do the EMT stuff again!!! I MISS IT!! I got the education, and worked it for awhile till it was time to move up here. Know it feels like i just dont belong in a position but i am working where i can for my daugter's medical stuff. I guess I just will figure out where I belong in life.
Then what is weird is last night I had a dream about a friend from back home. Him and i were sitting at a table drinking hot coco and it was snowing in the building. Well I remember an alarm going off and he had on his scrubs (he is a nurse) and i had my old EMT uniform on. So yea when i woke up.. just had a small pit in my stomach. But I am doing what I need to do.
Well I need to go get Evie picked up soon from school... oh joy then head to work
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