Saturday, June 25, 2016

ugh.. why me

Yeah I should be happy, feeling giddy, and all those amazing feelings.  But I don't.  Right now I'm just too tired still.  I suppose stress has really been kicking my butt lately and driving me nuts.

I think of all those walls that I had developed over the past 6 years and how it shut everyone out and all emotions and feelings off.  Well I thought I was past that by now, but I am not.  I need a blessing at this moment.  I don't have Home Teachers ..... ok that is not true.  I have some assigned yet they have NOT came by to see us or contacted us in anyway.  Being a single woman, with NO priesthood in my family, you would think this would be one of the reasons to make sure I get someone, but nope...

But seriously, as I look at what is on my hand  I am starting to question a lot of feelings, emotions, what is right and what is wrong.  Guess my ex really messed me up hu?

But seriously I am battling these emotions right now and its driving me nuts.  I need to figure out what is going on and what I need to do.  My girls LOVE him, and I know that means something.  There have been many times that Evie would say something in the past and later I wondered if she had received some personal revelation on the issue or what?  Does that make sense?

Anyways I have a long day today.  I have to hit the grocery store, return library stuff, then work from 11 till 6 today with the data job.  So at least I can stay home, get some cleaning and laundry done.

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